DON’T LET WHO YOU ARE TODAY RUIN WHO YOU COULD BE TOMORROW! I remember talking to my dad one night after I had gotten passed over for a writing opportunity I really wanted. He said to me, ” you can’t be stuck on what happened today because it will put what tomorrow had in store for you on hold”. He also told me that I shouldn’t be too hurt over not getting this opportunity because it just wasn’t for me, something better was around the corner. I’m not going to lie to you guys and say that I was not hurt in that situation because to be honest I was hurt. I felt like me not getting that position meant that I was not good enough, I wasn’t talented enough, and that I should give up on trying to use my writing as a career for me, but dad was right. That position was not for Kemi, and something better was right around the corner. I just needed to keep the mentality that something better was out there for me. The goal in life is to continue to move forward and never backward if you can help it. At times, especially as a young adult, we tend to get caught up in society’s timelines and expectations for our lives. We feel like we are a disappointment and failure when we don’t do things the way that they are “supposed” to be but if I have learned nothing else in my adulthood years I have learned that life is not a race, it’s a journey. There will be times when you trip and fall, that you get weak and tired, that you decide it’s not worth all of the frustration to keep going, but as long as you push past all of those things and keep going down the path everything will work out. I am still having to learn this concept and stick to it because trust me, there have been many days that I have cried my eyes out wondering if all of the stress was truly worth it, but everyday when I wake up, I look at myself in the mirror and I read one of the few mantras that I have written on my mirror and remember, everyday is a challenge, and I thank God that today I had the opportunity to accept it.
2017!!!!! Here we are another year has come and gone. I am not even going to lie to you and say that 2016 was great and I am excited for 2017. 2016 was hell and it has left me apprehensive about 2017, but for whatever reason, in the last couple of hours of 2016 I have an overwhelming feeling of hope. I have spent a whole year feeling hopeless and feeling like there is no way out of the darkness. I have been depressed and anxiety ridden, I’ve been sicker this year more than I ever have in my life, I was in and out of the hospital, stress was through the roof and yet I am walking into the new year with hope. It is something that is so easy to lose in the society that we live in. Things are so negative and all we see is death, deceit and destruction but there is still good and light all around us, we just need to try a little bit harder to see it at times. I know not every day is going to bring sunshine but I will put on my hope goggles and I will move forward with the mindset that it will all work out. I know that this post isn’t super deep or philosophical but for this one I wanted to keep it light and to the point. My theme for 2017 is Romans 8:24; “But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently“. Just remember, if you have already hit rock bottom, you can only go up from there.
Happy New Year !!!!!