I saw you through the eyes of a hurt woman
A broken woman, a woman that didn’t feel
I thought you were trying to come and steal
What little bit of sanity I was holding on to
See, humanity was screwing me over and over and over
And it hurt so bad I had to suck it up and try to push forward
I saw you
You with the optimism dripping through your text and into my hand
I couldn’t handle your hand reaching out to me
You reminded me of what I had lost
Yet you managed to make that throbbing pain in my chest stop
Just long enough for me to open my eyes and see
The generous man before me
I saw, I saw how you just wanted to give
You wanted me to live
Not just me physically but my inner self
The part of me that was slipping into a coma
The part of me that was high on soma
The part of me that did not want to feel
You wanted that piece
Your absence is very apparent to me
You don’t even realize who you are to me
And the crazy thing is…I’m not even sure what I am to you
I just know that you are one of the only brothas that cared long enough…
Long enough to hear about my dreams and crazy schemes and the things that make me
Me, the girl that you can’t run from…the girl you tried to walk away from
The girl you almost hurt even though you swore that was the last thing you wanna do…
I like you; I like you a lot actually.
Have you ever heard of love at first sight?
Well it didn’t happen like that…
I’m not even sure if I would call it love…but I feel something strong towards you
It was something about your transparency and your aloofness
Your simplicity and your complexity
It sends me, it is alluring it is mysterious
You are like my favorite page turning thriller that will keep me sucked in until I know…
Until I know every last detail of how the story came to be what it was.
You are like my favorite jazz genre.
So beautiful and so interesting and so entrapping
Getting lost in the specifics, the different instruments that play separate roles
But colliding to create such an array of blissful melodies
You have no clue of the things I think towards you. But you do now.